The Awakening

So recently I've been going through, what I call, a bit of an awakening. I think I've always been a little more awake than most, even as a child. I have always felt very connected to something more. I have always been sensitive and could read people's internal struggles and emotions. It's always effected me deeply. I have always known precisely who I am and what feeds my soul. Always. In the past, I have expressed to people (family/friends) "I can feel an entire universe inside me, can't you?" And they just looked at me like I had 3 heads. I know I'm meant for great things. I can feel it. I always have. That's just the weird person I've always been.

Recently though, I met a person that I'm certain I've known... in a past life. Sounds nuts right? I've never really thought on or contemplated about such a thing. I'm a Christian. My thoughts were always that... you have this one life and it's up to you to live it the best you can... to BE the best you can be... and maybe you'll go to heaven when you die. That was the goal. Past lives, just wasn't something I ever considered. Not until the day something inside me unlocked and a door burst open and said... "THIS PERSON! SHIT! YOU KNOW THEM!"

It was a startling and confusing moment in my life, but I knew it to be the truth. It wasn't a suspicion or theory... it was a knowing. My soul recognized their soul. Love and home in someone I barely knew, instantly. It was insane. It made no sense, but there was no denying it was the case. So what happened, you ask? Nothing. We're friends. I shared my experience with my very unawake friend. Only one door blew open that day, and that's okay. Our meeting, kickstarted my "level up." And now I'm on a solo mission to discover where I go from here.

My quest started with my curiosity on my past lives. I joined a few spiritual groups with people who have awoken and honed in on their abilities and can do some really incredible things. Past life regression hypnosis stuck out to me. That sounded like exactly the thing I needed. The curiosity drove me to go down rabbit hole after rabbit hole learning about all the different things people had been experiencing during their awakenings. Everyone started out the same... learning to meditate. Meditation was never something I did. I tried yoga once and it was not my thing. I'm an expert on zoning out and living in another world inside my head, but I have a lot of trouble quieting my mind and relaxing. Meditation to that degree, was a foreign concept but it was something I so very desperately needed to learn how to do. I found a few meditation videos on Youtube and started listening to them before bed. There is one past life regression meditation I liked to listen to the most, found it soothing and continued to have good results. I haven't experienced anything that has revealed my past lives yet, but I have had some other very interesting things happen while meditating. I want to keep those experiences to myself for now. I just need to keep at it and see where it takes me.

The point of this blog is to open up your minds a bit to the possibilities of living multiple lives and what the human brain is actually capable of.

Below are some of the topics that really peaked my attention:

- One soul, living multiple lives.

(AKA Past Lives, AKA Reincarnation)

- Astral Travel.

- Mediumship & Psychic Abilities

- Angels & Spirit Guides

- Soul Contracts

- Third Eye

- Charkas

I'm not going to pretend to be an expert on any of these subjects. I'm very new to all of this and stumbling through it as best I can. My current focus is on meditation and learning to quiet my mind and breathe. See what happens. I am feeling very confident, these days, that we do in fact have one soul... but we live many lives. I know I have lived at least one life prior to this... and that I knew my friend in a very important way. I also know there was some type of trauma in that past life. I expect it was some form of abuse... potentially sexual. Its hard to explain. They say if a person is born with a birth mark(s), that the mark(s) are an indication as to how they died in their previous life. If a person does not have a birth mark, the chances are they died of natural causes or peacefully in their sleep.

They also say that when you start your next life, you have amnesia. Sometimes, though, young children can remember their past lives.

Google the following:

- James Leininger, 4 year old - WWII fighter pilot.

- Billy Campbell, 4 year old - Princess Diana

- Ryan Hammonds, 5 year old - Marty Martyn

Those are just a few of the cases I found extremely compelling. Children seem to have the capability of remembering, but as time progresses, they let go of the past because of all the new things they have had to learn in their present life and because parents typically play what they say off as gibberish or make believe. It's not normal or a widely accepted concept. And even if the parents ARE receptive, it's not healthy for a child to live between two worlds. So... in the end, we all forget. And I guess that's for the best.

My current theory... is that we live many lives. One soul, many lives. The goal being... to learn and grow and (almost) perfect ourselves. I feel like we make plans in between lives, almost like a board meeting with our spirit guides. Like, "Okay... you died. So... what did you learn from that life? What could you have done better or focused on more? Cool... yes, agreed. Okay... here's who you are going to be now and what trials you're going to face. It's up to you, to make the right choices this time to further better yourself. PLOT TWIST... we're giving you amnesia and you won't remember a GD thing. You're starting from scratch. Good luck!" *HARD SHOVE BACK TO EXISTENCE*

Don't get it twisted, I am still a Christian. I always will be. I've always considered myself a free thinking and open minded Christian. My current thinking coincides with my faith. I think it is still a quest of being the best and most evolved versions of ourselves. I still believe the goal is heaven, I'm just not sure what I picture heaven as anymore though. I am very interested in the paranormal. I have had my own personal experiences that have been absolutely wild and left me in awe and wonder. And I have also watched a guy who made a device that allows him to reach out and communicate (with the help of his spirit guide) with specific people who have passed. They all come through and talk in their own distinct and recognizable voices, and when asked, they all talk about the same things... "Finding the light" and "Being in the light" and how important it is to have a relationship with God. It was almost as if they were in a purgatory state. And lately it has me thinking about it like I explained before... it's as if they're waiting for their "board meeting" to determine what comes next. A period of reflection in the in between.

I don't know guys... no one does... not until they're on the other side and experiencing it first hand. But isn't in fascinating to think about?! I'm not sure where I'll go with this new journey of awakening. I am apparently on stage 2 of a 4 stage awakening progression. It's the stumble and find your way stage. All I know is... I feel good. Like, really really good. I've had some pretty cool things happen already. I am learning to look inward for the answers or clarity I seek. I'm becoming more in touch with myself and in turn, the universe. I can tell you... with certainty that we are ALL capable of great things. The most important thing is to love yourself, quiet your mind and let go. If I can do it... trust me, you can too. But... there isn't necessarily a need for you to awaken. You don't NEED to take this same journey as me. Typically... an awakening just happens due to life circumstances. Mine occurred when my soul recognized another important soul. I didn't ask for this, but I'm here now and I'm exploring it. I'm fully aware how it sounds.

The take away I am offering you, is to be open minded. Be a good person. Stay positive. Make the most of this life. Whether we have one life or many, it is a gift. And remember... you were dealt the cards you're holding in you hand for a reason. You might not like the cards you have, but you have an obligation to play the hell out of them. Don't you dare fold. You've got this.

All my love,

Layney Lethal